The Hard Work of Waiting

"Stand still and see the salvation of the Lord which He will accomplish for you today." Exodus 14:13 -14 This is one of my favorite verses, yet the one that I dislike the most. Waiting is one of the hardest things for me to do. I do not like standing in line. In fact, I have forgone something I wanted, like a cup of coffee, just because there was a line. I arrange my schedule to go grocery shopping or any errands I have to do at times when I think there won't be as many people, so that I won't have to wait. Waiting seems like a such a waste of time.

We have had some changes at the PARC, and to tell you the truth I don't know what to do. I am not sure what the next step should be. It feels very important to me that I need to get busy and take care of this as quickly as possible; however, when I talk to God about our situation I hear Him say, "Wait." So, I begin to ask myself, "Is that really God, or am I just saying that because I feel paralyzed and don't know what to do?" Then I remember. I would never tell myself to wait, but God sure would.

It frustrates me. I feel like valuable time is being wasted. We don't have time to wait. There is too much to do and too much going on. The next part of that passage says, "The Lord will fight for you, and you shall hold your peace."
'Hold my peace?' Seriously?

There is more to waiting than standing there impatiently with my arms crossed, tapping my foot 'waiting' for God to hurry up and do something. I am to 'hold my peace.' That means I need to trust that God is busy fighting for me, even when I can't see it. I am to trust and have PEACE that God knows more than I do, and He will take care of this. A friend asked me the other day how he could pray for me. I asked him to pray that I would be on time. I don't want to be too early, and I certainly don't want to be late. I want to be arm in arm with God; cooperating with Him in whatever He is doing. So, I guess I'll wait. I'm glad you can't hear me sigh and see me roll my eyes when I say that. I am working on the peace part.