Come and Wait

Of my many characteristics, one that I am NOT known for is patience. I will admit that I am not a patient person. I try! It is not something that I am proud of.  I promise that I try, but it is definitely something I struggle with. I am about to have surgery and every time I tell someone about it they tell me, "You are going to have be patient and let your body heal." Every time! Why does everyone say that to me? Because everyone that knows me understands that about me. I am not patient. 

Today I was reading in Isiah when God tells the people that He is waiting on them to come to Him so that He can show them His love and compassion. Then in the very same verse He tells them that 'blessed are those who wait for His help.' Waiting is hard when you don't have patience. This is what I heard. Come and wait. 

This morning in my prayer I apologized to God for not trusting Him. He has shown Himself to be faithful to me over and over and yet I STILL struggle. I worry and I fret. That means I am not trusting God. I really hate that. If you asked me I would tell you that I do trust God, but I always seem to have something in my life that I am 'worrying' about, that I am waiting on God to fix or answer. What it usually comes down to is that it is usually things that I cannot control. I am a problem solver, so if there is a problem, let's fix it.

The truth is that God is the 'fixer'. So, I need to depend on Him to 'fix' it. I need to come to Him and wait on Him. Have you ever wondered why God seems to 'wait' until the last minute to answer our prayers? It is like we are running out of time and we don't see how God has done anything to 'fix' our  problem. Why can't I trust Him? Why can't I just rest and wait, be patient and trust Him? 

So, this is what I am working on. I am asking God to help me to trust Him so that I can rest. I am telling Him that I will come and wait! At least I will try.