I Choose Relationship

I don't think of myself as 'spiritual'. I don't talk the talk very well, if that makes any sense. A lot of times when I listen to other Christians talk, they say things so eloquently and beautifully. They can quote the scriptures and even give the references! I am not good at that. I do think of myself as someone that loves God and needs Him desperately. I can't even imagine this life without Him. It isn't spiritual. It is simply surviving, living, and trying to thrive.

Every day I do my best to get up early so that I can have some personal time with just God and me. I read scripture expectantly because I need to hear what He has to say about life and to learn. I have so much to learn. I admit, I use that time to vent and share my worries and frustrations. I need help. I actually believe that He wants to help me and that He is the One with the answers. He knows the way. In fact, He is The Way which I am not really sure that I can explain.

My relationship with God has taken a lot of work. But every relationship takes a lot of work. I've had to learn to trust Him and believe Him. I've had to learn to hear and discern what His voice sounds like. It has taken a lot of practice. It has taken a lot of time. I must pay attention. I've decided that He's worth it. When I talk about getting up early to spend time with God, I never want anyone to admire me or think that I am spiritual. This is my confession to you. I get up early to talk to God for purely selfish reasons. I want to be with Him. I need Him and I need His help. I am grateful for my relationship with God, and I am really grateful that He wants to have a relationship with me.

the PARC is all about relationship. I guess that is where this all starts. The reason I love this place so much is because I love relationship, and I believe that I have learned about relationship from the very best! He has shown me the value of it and taught me the value of people. He has taught me and He continues to teach me. Relationship isn't easy, but it sure is worth it! I've decided that I choose relationship